tonight I was sitting on a bench and I
felt an immediate urge not to feel anymore
I threw myself
singlehandedly
down the steep hill in front of
my eyes and yours
at first I rolled slowly but it picked up and I
stopped seeing kind of but
it was also dark
so that might have been it
I had waited for it to pick up so
I could feel something dull and new but
when it did I waited for it
to stop
rolling down the hill and
losing my senses
felt like kissing your mouth and
losing my self
at the bottom my eyes weren’t mine
at the bottom my body spun
at the bottom I was still there and
I had realized that I wasn’t as drastic as
I had planned
at the bottom you
came to find me
at the bottom I’ll remain